Today is day six of not smoking and man was it a roller-coaster ride! I had a pretty normal day at work with not much too exciting going on. Meetings, budgeting, phone calls and emails. I really quite honestly didn’t think too much about smoking at all. When I got home, me and my wife went to dinner at a nice Thai food place. About half way through dinner my phone rings. We have a massive problem at work.
We scarf down our food and pay the tab. I take my wife home and drop her off and immediately head to the office. Traffic is horrible and this is one of those problems that every minute counts. I’m stressing – BIG TIME. And that’s when it hits… bam… the urge to smoke. I really wanted to pull over at Kwik-E-Mart and let that little devil Apu sell me some smokes. But I didn’t. I am absolute in my resolve to never smoke again. You need to make the same decision in your mind and you need to write down a list of all those reasons and re-read them to yourself every day!
It wound up taking till almost midnight to get things resolved and return home. During that time I managed to completely forget about smoking and focus on the problems at hand. I didn’t need that crutch after all. If I can get through a situation that stressful without smoking, I can get through any situation without smoking. It’s actually a very impactful event for me, because the first time I had ever smoked at work was a stressful situation. It was part of my transition from social smoker to full-time smoker. My boss at the time had threatened to fire me if something that happened ever happened again. I had been to the bar the night before (social smoker, remember?) and had a pack of smokes in my vehicle. I walked straight to my vehicle, grabbed a cigarette and lit up. From that day forward I smoked at work every day. My transition to full-time smoker was complete.